We Wiped The Floor W/ Peoria!

Dan and I went to a Chicago Wolves game yesterday w/ his little brother Jeff and his girly friend Taylor, we had a great time! andd we were ON THE ICE! yah baby! So awesome! I love Hockey!

Randomness :)

I had my time to be miserable and negative and that sucked so here are positive things in my life~

1. Dan is amazing and I have a time frame 12-25-07 ~ 03-31-08 and that my friends is VERY exciting!
2. I'm enjoying the quiet minus Broo Broo snoring however it's almost surreal...
3. I am warm and toasty inside and cozy under my Nemo blanket/shield.
4. I had a wonderful early Christmas with my family and Dan and my brother (Dan) and his girl friend (we went to see Phantom of the Opera and it was AMAZING!!!!)
5. I have a new book I can read!
6. I GOT an A in my class!!!! :)
7. I have sugar free cherry Jell-O calling my name!

8. I may have a promotion opportunity this up coming year!

9. I have a new ring tone on my cell phone for Dan! (What a man what a man what a mighty fine mannnnn!)
I think this works for now any negative things I have here are some pics some from early Christmas :)


Ye family...
My Honeyyyyyy Bunches O' Oats! :)
Me and Dan my Bro

Plans Have Changed ♥

So Friends!
All of Thursday and Friday were spent RING shopping for the entire day it was so much fun!! I honestly have not had that much hope and excitement in a long time!!! Dan is amazing! Oh and there is a new ring because when I actually put the other ring on that I posted... it looked like my finger was eating the ring... I have large hands and it was just not as amazing in person however! this one was!!! and this is the one we're going with! EEEE I can't wait!!!

Wife Material

Hey Ladies!!!

Right now I am being the very essence of wife material... I'm sitting in my apron waiting for my next batch of Ghirardelli dark chocolate chip cookies to finish baking in the oven , now you tell me that's not wife material! :) I love cooking and baking and Dan seems to enjoy it too! we had his dad and wife over on Sunday and I made lasagna! homemade with beef, Italian sausage, 5 cheeses and hang on the oven just beeped! Okay I'm back! Anyway Dan and his dad seemed to enjoy it and I made dessert which was not pumpkin pie (that's this weekend) but I made a nice light jello salad to compliment the heavy meal :)
Today is wonderful, I'm just enjoying some me time which includes sipping hot coffee baking and listening to Christmas music (as much as Dan is opposed to Christmas music in November) I feel I am entitled to at least 2 months of Christmas music! I mean seriously if Target can display all the glittering lights and tinsel certainly I can have my Christmas music! I did pick up the new Josh Groban Christmas CD which is awesome! :)
On another note Dan and I went to a jeweler to have a quote drawn up my ring (YAY!) it was supposed to ready today as promised by the woman with blue hair behind the counter (it really was blue) but such is not the case either way I am ecstatic that he's REALLY pursuing my ring! :) YAY!!!!! I just need to be patient! which sometimes is easier said than done... much easier said. On the upside I will be married sooner than later (I hope) so I should keep
practicing my baking and cooking skills which is what I am doing! :) I also made chicken and dumplings last Thursday (Dan wasn't a fan of the carrots... note to self) I've also made 4 pumpkin pies already and 2 more on the way for Sunday but instead of evaporated milk I use sugar free french vanilla ice cream :) it's really good! Anyway back to baking ladies! here is my ring! the real deal :) just looking at it makes me all giddy with happy thoughts!

Innocence Unveiled ♥

This is called my innocence picture, my bible study for healing encouraged me to take a picture and think of nothing but my favorite innocent memory as a child and as an adult.
My favorite memory as a child would be sitting on my daddy's lap watching The Andy Griffith Show and sharing a root beer float. My favorite memory as an adult would be the first time Dan said "I love you" both are priceless moments and here is my picture of innocence. :) There you have it friends Innocence Unveiled

A Little Grrr With A Whole Lotta Happy! ♥

So allow me to explain, I hate the sound of my name currently because the name Heidi has every opportunity to sound winy Heiiiiiddiiiiiiiiiiiiii see what I mean? This is what I have experienced all day today and most of last week. It was by far the most frustrating moment when a grown man stuck out his lower lip ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!??? do you have a shitty diaper? what in the world are you poochy lipping for?!!? the only person who has any pull by whipping out the poochie lip is Dan, he's so cute when he does that! but not Lester the 48 year old man who can't walk to the cafeteria by himself! I was trying so hard to be nice and I accomplished that but freakin crap!!!!!!!!! GROW UP!!!!! Now I understand there are new people (18 to be precise) and I want to just scream to the top of my lungs and hide under my desk with a double shot light coffee from Starbucks but such is not the case. Anyway I'm done complaining now. :)

on the upside I have really struggled with being patient and waiting for my ring,but God has really given me peace with this and I could not be more thankful... I know this is stupid but I love Dan more than anybody in the whole world, he is my best friend my partner in crime. I feel safe and truly loved when I am with him. I laugh until I cry, when he kisses me my whole world seems to light up like the skies on the 4th of July, he can hug me and make my walls of fear and confusion crumble to the depths of the earth, he motivates me to become a better person. I feel treasured , with him I can completely be myself, his shoulder is the best to cry on and his arms are the best to fall into after a long day, he holds me up when I feel like I can't keep going and he encourages me to be the best person I can be, he puts so much into understanding me and what I am going through and how I am feeling, I can talk to him and have a good conversation.... sometimes farting works its way in there but hey more reason to laugh

I can't wait to marry him! I know I'm a dork but I am so excited to wake up next to him every day and live life full of love together :) YAY I'm all excited I know it's a while away but so worth the wait :) AND we've been looking at rings, well I have but he's not being crabby about it he's actually accepting the pictures and actually asking for specifics :) Very exciting! I know I'm pathetic.... but if it helps me to be patient and excited then I don't care! :) so that's that I also bought a picture frame for when he actually does propose :) actually I have a whole bunch of trinkets for when he proposes....

On another topic, Il Divo is amazing and if you have not heard them tell me and I will burn you a CD! they are phenomenal I also am becoming quite fond of Josh Groban both of which I would loveeeeee to see in concert but that will probably never happen anyway I just wanted to blog before I went to bed :) oh! School is going awesome I have a 98% average in my class YAY! I'm so happy about that :) I love school I feel like I am actually accomplishing something here! okay bed time night friends I love you all!!!!

heres a cute pic of Dan and I we took it Sunday when we did our Bible Study together at Starbucks!

Definate Awwwwe Moment ♥

Okay Friends,

So first of all let me say Dan is amazing!!! For my Birthday, he sent me the most beautiful flower arrangement I've ever seen! AND he had it delivered to me at work!!!! I had some very jealous co-workers! They all said my HUSBAND is awesome, well as of right now he is not my husband BUT he is a phenomenal boyfriend and my very best friend! But I got all giddy and excited. I know it's not for a while but he's going to propose to me sometime next year!!!! how exciting is that!?!?! I can only imagine what he will have planned for that day!!! :) I found myself tearing up as I read my little card that came in the flowers and to say the very least, I was beaming! I could not stop smiling for the life of me not that I want to stop smiling!

Not only did he send me beautiful flowers but he also encouraged me so much on Saturday and Sunday I was so nervous and he stood in the back by the entrance and smiled at me and cheered me on the whole time I sang!!!! He told me he was proud of me :) He's so amazing I just can't stop saying that! Be prepared when he does propose it's gonna be 22 page blog I'm sure! :)
He's so sweet!!!!

Things That Made ME SMILE today ♥

This one is extra sexay! wow....

The man who can make me laugh no matter what, I'm so blessed!!

1.) My Iced Venti non fat 3 pump PUMPKIN SPICE latte :) I was dying for one so I asked Kandi and she said they just got it in today!!! Needless to say I broke into my happy dance :)

2.) My picture of Dan and I (SEE ABOVE!!)

3.) BUYING SCHOOL SUPPLIES BECAUSE I'M BACK IN SCHOOL!!!!!! :)

4.) My Customer who said I am an asset to Allstate!

5.) My Bible (Captivating is amazing!)

6.)My Gen Ho egg roll!!!!! SO GOOD!

7.) My Spinach salad with red pepper and egg with 2 calorie salad dressing spray :)

8.)Bru Bru licking my toes while I write this

9.) Watching Hocus Pocus with my mom

10.) Getting to sing and knowing my daddy will be there!!!!

Sarcasm On Hold ♥ Indefinately

Hey Friends!

So the other night I posted a blog about this girl who I work with, well yesterday I brought her a White Mocha from Starbucks because I heard her talking to a friend and she told her she wanted one so bad but she couldn't afford it because she had school supplies she had to buy for her kids. Well I decided to buy one for her and bring it to her. I also decided in that moment that I have no right to say what I did in that Blog, I don't know her and I was just mean venting or not it was mean and I don't want to be like that. I thought about this long and hard and I realized that she made me feel bad and I didn't like that and rather than doing what I am now I retaliated and that's not me. So anyway I gave her the White Mocha and she was so excited and she kept thanking me over and over again and you know what I suddenly saw a hurting single mother of 2 who was striving to take care of her children before herself. I also saw a person with feelings, who was probably wondering how she was going to get her daughter the back pack she wanted and the pretty note books with the cool pens. I remember when I went to school my dad was unemployed and he dressed up as the Keebler Elf so we had what we needed he sacrificed so much for us and when he didn't have a job he was doing everything from dressing up as Santa Clause, Barney, Elmo, the Keebler Elf anything and everything. I say this because I remember in second grade I wanted a Lisa Frank back pack so bad I could not see straight every time we went into Wal-mart I begged my mom and she said your back pack from last year is just fine. Well now I see it her way but this is also about 16 years later! Anyway I remember the first day of school my dad came into my room and kissed my nose and held up that Lisa Frank back pack!! I was so excited I couldn't stop screeching and saying YOU GOT IT YOU GOT IT!!!! Moments like those are what make my Daddy my hero and such an awesome provider. Those are the things I dwell on and think about not the other stuff because my daddy was and is my hero.

I remembered that story while I was listening to her talk about her daughter to her friend and how she wants the nice stuff all the other girls have and how she just can't afford it. I decided that would be my "Morning Star Mission" for the school kids I went and got her the coolest back pack I could find it's pink with rainbow sparkly stars all over it (I almost wanted one) and the bright awesome note books and the funky pens and pencils ( I also caught in the conversation it was her first year with a locker) so I got her some fun locker stuff and a lip gloss with a magnet for your locker (WHY DIDN'T THEY HAVE THOSE WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL!!!!???) and a mirror and a locker shelf and magnets and book covers and a day timer and 3 ring binders and a gift card for 30$ to the Limited Too. I gave it to her mom and told her I heard her talking about her daughter and I told her to give it to her and don't mention me at all just say it's from you, because when a little girl wants something sooo bad and she gets it, it becomes so much more then just a back pack for me it was my daddy loves me so much with or without the back pack. I'm sure that is my first recollection of my dad being the provider he always has been and I will cherish that moment forever and hopefully her daughter will too ♥

ehhhaaaaa!!

SO! I went to JJC and took my COMPASS tests, I was fairly sure that I was going to end up in Introduction to Numbers or something like that but I DIDN'T!!!! I passed with a 98 out of 100!!!! I PASSED!!!! So the title of my blog would be the noise that escaped my lips when she told me I passed out of learning how to write the number 2!!!!!!! WHOOP!!!!

I'm sitting in the break room at work and I'm fairly certain the guy sitting next to me either bathed himself in Old Spice or he strangled an old man and stole his horrid cologne. He told me I smell nice (yeah it's SOAP I'll get you a bar for Christmas...) seriously how hard is it to shower? you smell like a nursing home! and I'm so not making fun of nursing home people I'm making fun of grown men who neglect to bathe... Sorry I had to get that out.

I came into work and I was told my overtime doesn't officially start until 12:30 crap! so I'm doomed to sit next to Ruprecht The Monkey Boy who hasn't stopped scratching his ass since I came into the room (hence monkey boy)

I also have a new cubical mate that sits across from me and not only does she talk like Fran Drescher but she also dressed like a prostitute that got sideswiped by porn star makeup and she calls me Bitch not as a mean thing she calls everybody Bitch she's just a true piece of work. In addition to her pictures of herself littering the walls of her cubical I really don't know how I'm going to deal with this woman on a daily basis, then she told me I
lack makeup application skills...Are you kidding me!?!? please tell you're joking because from here it looks like you got attacked by bronzer like you opened the compact and it came to life and started mauling your face but neglected to blend into your neck and your false eyelashes wow sister.... you have a whole lot of room to talk! okay I need to go now I CAN'T STAND CAPTAIN BRUT ANYMORE!!! Okay I'll talk to you all later! love ya bunches!

Letters To A Broken Soul

I guess I've just had a lot on my mind as far as my counseling too... I really don't know how I am supposed to feel anymore, I feel like I should really be moving on but a small part of me desires closure and I know I will not be getting that anytime soon. I wrote my grandpa a letter and I sent him a package. I was fairly blunt in the letter, and the hardest part was sealing it and dropping it off at the post office once I did that I couldn't get it back. I felt terribly alone while I wrote my letter, I saved a copy of it so I guess I'll post it on here mainly as healing for myself.

Dear Grandpa,

I intended to begin this letter with I hope you're doing well, but I know this is not the case, but know that I pray for you on a regular basis. I've debated a long time whether or not if I have the strength to write you a letter since the last time I actually saw you was when grandma died. I wanted to tell you what she said to me before she died, you laughed in my face and slammed the door shut. I remember that laugh it always scared me as a little girl I knew when I heard it bad things were going to happen to me and I would be sworn to secrecy. I still remember you making me "big girl promise" I would never tell a soul or you would hurt my family too. I was terrified you would hurt my brother or my mom or dad and I would lose them and be alone forever. I thought it was what a "good girl" would do.

Did you think for a second that I would grow up to be who I am today? Guess what, I told your secret and I'm not afraid for my family anymore. Now I am afraid for you because as much as I hate what you did I still love you Grandpa and I don't want you to suffer eternally as it is plain as day that you are suffering now. I said this to Grandma too, I laid next to her on her hospital bed and I held her hand and I told her I loved her and that I forgave her. She cried with me and all she could say was I'm sorry, and suddenly the pain and fear I had endured for years with you melted away. She asked for forgiveness from Jesus less than an hour before she died Grandpa. She also asked me to share that with you. I tried to when I was 17 and here I am today sharing it with you because I love you Grandpa regardless of the past and I want you to have peace. I know you know what you did, please know I hate the actions and I hated the perpetual fear and always wondering what was going to happen next but I love you, I can't not love you. Nobody deserves to be alone in this world.

God forgives the most wicked destitute sinners with out blinking an eye and I apologize because I didn't forgive you for a long time. I didn't care what was going to happen to you , now I see you and you have nothing and I'm truly sorry for you. I at least have hope and a future. You can have hope too, I wanted you to know that Grandma is in Heaven now and when your time comes I want you to be there too I put a Bible in here because I want you to know Gods love for you too I also highlighted some verses there's one Isiah 61:3 Beauty for ashes... that's what I've been given. I also put the bear in here because it's the one I gave to Grandma in the hospital she loved it she named him Here After. Now I want you to have him he brought her comfort when she needed it most. I bought the large print for you too please read it. I'm going to come visit you soon I need a little more time for that though, but I will come see you soon I promise.

I really do love you Grandpa, please know and never doubt that.

Love Always,

Heidi

I'm Bringin Sexy Back HA!

so i found a necklace to match my weirdo green outfit it was awesome, I said no to temptation called Taco Bell- anything you can pay 77 cents for that contains meat,cheese and lettuce more than likely is not real mean but BUTT of some kind... anywho my mom took some pictures of me of me one with Broo Broo my bitty buddy who finds his way in my bed most nights and me being my diva self soooo enjoy i'll post more later! love ya!

WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK

So the only good thing about today is I was able to slide into a size 6 with ease and sexy confidence! I went into the GAP and put on a 6 for the first time since high school! YEAH BABY! woooooo!!!!!!! and I was able to celebrate with 3 of my favorite people! WOOOOO!!!!

So allow me to share the events of my evening with you. For starters my vocabulary has been broadened extensively and I've been informed of at least 15 new things that are wrong with me. On the upside, my cuticles are in fine shape since that was the goal of the evening. I had a customer call me and scream at me like a little girl because his policy went into termination status WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK this is what happens when you don't make a payment for 4 months, and yes while we do value your business we also value your payments!!! and when you don't pay bad things happen like terminated policies or lapses in coverage. We want our money like an ex wife with 3 kids wants her alimony and child support and we while we won't bitch as much as the ex wife we will take matters into our own hands. In addition to this I know he meant to insult me by calling me a little bitch however he made my night! because I'm in a size 6!!!!! :)

Yah I'm tired now so i'm going to go to sleep night friends more ranting tomorrow!

I realized something... I really dislike the 102 lb size 2 giggle at everything and flip your hair with your "perfect" girls, never counting calories, probably can't count at all, swipe daddy’s Visa card for the $100.00 pair of denim underwear as cute as that sounds I mean shorts (wish i looked good in them this whole rant is me being jealous just fyi :) , perfect hair no matter what element, 1.5 gpa (not jealous of that), cell phone mounted in their ear with the blue tooth device (I actually want one of those ha!) little sticky gems all over their phone, spitting I love you's out to ever Tom, Dick or Harry, did I mention giggling, BAFOONS,( I know I can be that too whatever this is my ranting session so ha!) I also think men who wear speedos need an encounter with a hungry grizzly bear, socks and sandals is just sick and you know it too! if it's cold outside don't wear sandals put on a normal pair of shoes!!! nose hair is pretty sick too... if your in jewel in the CONVENIENT SELF CHECK OUT LINE PLEASE DON'T LET YOUR MONSTER CHILD SIT WHERE THE FRICKEN GROCERIES GO!!!! That throws the whole damn thing off thus making me wait longer to purchase my 6 slices of lean turkey breast and 3 whole wheat rolls... I also can't stand back hair that’s so wrong in so many different ways TEEN WOLF WAS AN EARLY 90'S THING MEN!!! WAX THAT CRAP!!!! and wife beaters on skinny white boys is not hot! it's stupid you look like a tampon seriously... and men... whitie tities with yellow sweat stains and holes besides "THE HOLE" are not attractive burn that shit now go ahead I'll wait don't throw them away burn them!! okay now that that’s out of the way if you have a brain in your head and it's not glittery with stupidity feel free to send me a message:) okay airheads are welcome too I have my air head moments... a lot but we're not going there :)

Customer Service WHA?!!?

So I've been meaning to find a place to express my "feelings" about customer service. I love my job please don't get me wrong, however being called everything but a white girl because I for whatever reason can't pull my head out of my ass (as customers like to say) Granted if I could in fact place my head in my ass I wouldn't have to listen to them and I'm pretty sure my ass would be more interesting than the fact that you couldn't pay your bill because you were piss drunk in an alley somewhere and you had puke on your shirt from that 17th Yeager Bomb (that probably was not your brightest moment) ... yes sir I understand you had puke on your shirt and you probably crapped your pants! however sir we wouldn't see you through the phone make a payment naked eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for all we care we can't see you!!! maybe we should think about the more important matter here 17 Yeager Bombs!?!?Take your mind off the 45$ late fee!!!Sir go look in your bed first observe the person, is it female/human? because after 17 Yeager Bombs chances are you could have a fricken ELK in that bed and you would not have noticed the difference! wow I mean this is what I deal with all day! Or, Yes sir you're absolutely right I do suck as a person uhuh yes i know I am worthless (this whole time I'm making my own payment on my credit card and working on my cuticles) Yes sir I know how angry you are... oh you're going to blow up this call center? Okay sir I'm going to have to start recording this conversation because you're placing the lives of over 300 customer service reps in jeopardy, recording now. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!?? A man threatens to blow a building up and legally I am obligated to inform him that I am now recording him??!!! are you kidding me!



Anyway I'm done ranting about that. I mean seriously this is so much better than seeing Hank at the local Home Depot with his ass crack sticking out of his jeans that are being held up by suspenders with little measuring tapes on them (cleaver who bought those for you, they must think you're pretty gay too...) oh and the famous tee-shirt "Items Under Shirt Are Larger Than They Appear" Sir I am pretty sure you really don't want people thinking your MAN BOOBS are bigger than they appear, because if those man boobies get much better you're going to need a reduction and lets not get started on the chewed up pencil behind your ear which is camouflaged by the out of control ear hair consuming the pencil (say I'm hot one more time and I will stab you in the eye with that mauled up germ ridden pencil) and go buy a weed-wacker for that sick ass ear hair and nose hair nobody wants to see that!!!!!!!! then maybe take a shower and use that foreign stuff in the bottle called soap lather up reallll good like 5 times rinse and then maybe you will look decent enough to go through the Browns Chicken Drive-Thru (MAYBE)



I see now why my mouth gets me in trouble now... lol anywho I'm gonna go for now more ranting and raving tomorrow I'm sure. And for now dear friends I should probably go shower :) I'm taking my brother out for his birthday! so I'll talk to you all later

Love ya all to death!